7 years later, I am no longer the same Josh.

It's been a long long time. Most of the content in this blog was nothing more than my obsession with Rachel Yamamoto, A gorgeous half Japanese and half German girl that attended Think Tank Training Centre with me. Half Jap and Half German that plays video games is my number one type of girl on my list so I naturally went bananas over her. Looking back at it now I was totally immature and silly but I couldn't help it, I can't explain at the moment why. Damn Rachel, I've never gone so crazy over a woman in my entire life. What kind of sorcery did you cast on me girl! >.<" I am much more mature and wise after 7 years of trials and errors, sufferings, and growing up. I am what you call a "Late Bloomer." I am now proud to officially call myself an adult now, Physically and Mentally. I still enjoy video games, but no longer have an addiction to them. All of my friends from 2011 have drifted off. I'm trying to reconnect to most of them and hopefully catch up with the times. My goals of starting a family with Colleen Dinh and marrying her are gone. We ended in June 2017 due to problems that were always there from the start but we refused to accept the truth because "we've been together for so long." The love was gone loooong looong ago! I still love her as a person and I don't mind hanging out with her when she's ever ready. I'll post more shit when I'm prepared. This is my first quick draft so enjoy all the errors love! Josh

Shut Down 2010.... Off to a new start with 2011!

That "last boss" of 2010 almost defeated me.. whew! Good thing she never came to school anymore otherwise I'd fail haha! Thankfully, the Lord has shown me mercy and has given me a chance with someone better. I will try... however, we do not know where the rivers flows ;D.

Josh is a believer? No way!!

I'm surprised how people can't believe that I'm a believer in Christ. Haha, well It's really nothing to be surprised about. When you have someone guiding you through life.... It's hard NOT TO believe. People think "Oh that religion stuff is all garbage from books... it doesn't do anyone good!"... Agreed to an extent. ANYTHING from ANY book or source of knowledge IS garbage!!... if you do not put it in action!

You can read all about, let's say, a 3d program on the internet. But if you don't put your information to practice, you'll never get any experience to knowing what and how to do 3D!

Same thing for "religion". If you do not put your faith in the word of God into your lives, you won't get ANY result!

That is why I believe. Because putting the Lord in my life has changed me from a little shy boy, into a good looking, confident young man... well, those are some reasons hehe =P.

This is my living testimony. The more you read and absorb knowledge.. and put it to practice, the more WISDOM you can achieve!

How the heck am I getting these ideas to write this blog? Well the Holy Spirits helping me write it that's why! =D.

Hope ya'll don't get too intimitated. I am still the confident, funny, good looking Josh you all know =).

Put Jesus in your lives and credit him all your victories and he shall reward you with more blessings in the future! =).


Thanks for reading!

Life's Good!

Got my demo reel proposal done.. the presentation was EPIC!! The Lord has also rewarded me with a special bonus! Love u Jesus!


All credit goes to Jesus, not me. He's provided everything I needed in my life. =)

Lesson Learned from the Lord

"Everyone in this world are my friends. Only the Lord thy God decides if things are meant to be." These are the wise words I have learned through these weeks of learning... from Jesus Christ himself!!!

I have a testimony to the world:

During these past 1 1/2 weeks, the Lord has taught me how to control my emotions to becoming a better person. Why do we let ourselves succumb to our emotions when our soul resides above the heart? To becoming one with the Lord, one must have the will to control one's emotions.

Why do we hate? Why do we Anger? Why do we weep? Why do we engulf in joy? Why do we love? There is a reason to everything that results in our emotional explosions.

For instance, we have a goal in mind... and begin to create a fantasy in our minds.. sometimes it cannot be made into reality. Therefore, once reality collides with fantasy, and it does not match, it triggers an emotional response! We explode with emotion once our fantasy does not meet reality.... or our expectations does not meet with our goals. How do we control these emotions? SIMPLE!

One must ACCEPT the fact that there is NOTHING we can do about it once something you either like or hate happens! That's it! Once you've accepted that you're done! You've found the source of your emotional issues! We as humans, must accept that things in the world whether you like it or not.. is under God's ultimate plan.

No matter how hard we try, we cannot change it! Accept that your life is on route with the Lord's plan and move on forward without regrets!!

If you are in love, don't fall for the early symptoms of "Infatuation"! Love is patient as said in the bible. You will not know what true love is if you don't even know who the person is and why you love them. So that's why FRIENDSHIP should be established! Even to your enemies! The lord said, "Love your enemies". DO IT! FRIENDSHIP to everyone!! It is what the Lord wants! What would Jesus do?

Someone smacks you in the face? Show them your other cheek and forgive them! Someone steals a loonie from you? Give them 10 bucks! Someone insults you? Give them praise! You will be rewarded in heaven when the time comes, for this is what the Lord wants in all of us! FORGIVENESS! Forgiveness is also a method of controlling the anger emotion. Once we destroy our grudges by forgiving one another, the anger emotion has no purpose of living and dissapates.


I have truly learned a lot from this past week. How to control emotions so you don't get hurt.. or hurt others. Shutting down fantasies, and replacing them with tough reality. Learning about love, forgiveness, friendship. It's really been a ROUGH ride, but it was worthwhile, for the lord disciplines us because he loves us.


Thanks for reading,

Josh

A wake up call from destiny?

Nobody in school understands this.. warm feeling I have inside. Could it really be? It has never happened before in the past. This.. entity. continues to pop into my head. I'm starting to eat less, sleep less (quality of sleep is extraordinary), work harder, being overlydefensive... Just for this "entity".

I don't know. I've talked to Jesus about it... and he said that everythings going to be fine. I hope he's right =X.

End of 1st Semester, Start of 2nd Semester!!

What a wild ride damnit! Finished 1st semester like it was yesterday!! I'm one step closer to being the CEO of the best gaming company in the world!

Thanks Jesus!